My wife and had felt for a while that we should have another child. This would make number five. After swallowing our selfish desires, we followed the prompting and wife became pregant in November. Things were going well, and it looked as though we were right on track with another child.
Come five months, we were excited to get "the" ultrasound to findout if we where having another girl or another boy. Because of insurance problems, the ultrasound was delayed a couple weeks. Finally with the big day at hand, we checked all the kids out of school and all headed to the hospital to find out the big news. The kids skipped and giggled with excitement as we all speculated what this new addition to our family would be.
The good news.., it was a girl. The bad news.. her heart had stopped just days before. Words can't discribe the punch to the stomach that we recieved at that moment.
The next few hours resulted in trips to the doctor's office and a huge wave of information.
Yesterday we spent all day in the hospital where my wife was induced, so she could give birth to our still born baby girl.
Between tears and making preparations for the birth and death and burial of my fourth daughter and fifth child, I found what i always have known to be true. The same things thaht drive my live and my views, which i share freely here on this blog.
The truth is this..
Family is, without a doubt, the fundamental building block of society. The governement in now way can compensate for the reponsibilies that are ours, as parents. Although it is tempting to blame everything and everyone for the loss of this child, life is life, and things happen that can't be explained.
Only that God who created this world, and has a greater plan for it, fully knows our potential and how we can achieve it. Only He, who has all knowledge, can know what He has in store for my daughter.
So I post this in memory of my daughter who i will never really know in this life, but who i know has a greater mission in the next.
Posted
Mar 27 2008, 09:53 AM
by
Splittfinger